Can't believe...

I can't believe..my future shattered..just like a broken glass...Shattered into pieces..I can't believe..S@#t!..I earned it..I worked my butt off for that position now it's been taken away from me..I can't explain in words what it did to me with one mistake what I've worked hard for vanished into thin air. 13 year's of hard work..Damn..I wished I can have it back But I was told to work to get my post back..How can they be heartless?.Why did they do this to me?..I want justice..I wanted to run..run away from all this I can't stand it anymore..I ask myself over and over..was it right?, were they on their right man?, did I deserve this?..I will never know the answer and I dont want to know..Because it's just too late..I'm ashamed of what they have done to me..it was cruel..Very cruel..I will never be the same..I will not forget this day..The day they took everything away from me.

Fantasy..!!

Let me share with you a very intense and very sensitive moment..I shared with a very special person in my heart about my fantasy..It all started while talking on the phone in one moment we were fighting..let's just summarize it..it was not cool what happened next until we met that same night going through what just started was just a conversation on the phone..aaahhh..I was so mad..I could'nt hold of myslef I tried my best to calm down but I just burst and the things I said was very awful..I know cause I realized every word coming out of my mouth was impulsive..I dont like to be provoked..once you start something..I'll make sure I'll finish it for you,Yes I have a very bad temper but that moment I bursted..I felt so bad leaving while there my special someone sit's on the side walk..with face so sad and mad at the same time..I was sad too..I could'nt let it..I went back and confront what I started..and told myself..NEVER again I will share my fantasy to someone who is closed to be dearly. We managed to settle things right there and then.. i dont if it was forgotten but I know for sure..not..But it was just a fantasy.. and it will end as a fantasy..

Having a bad day..

aaahhh!!..just when you thought..everything was going right..Suddenly thing's turns bad..I'm lack of sleep thanks to a friend..ruining my sleep waking me up by calling me at 1:35am..just when you were sleeping so peacefully..and annoys you what he has to say..and apologized realizing that he was no longer funny..You know what I did?..though his a close friend of mine..I shot off my celphone I know it was impolite..but I just can't stand it..hey I like my friend..dont get me wrong..but sometime's he has this tendency to annoy me..I don't know if he is just doing it to make himself happy or just to annoy me..Don't you have this moments.I off my celphone and I dozed of to sleep because I went home late from work and I have to get up at 5am to get to work, yaH.. I know he will be mad..but it's better that way than we end up fighting I have a bad temper and he knows that..maybe he forgot..well hope to make it up to him..yup I can be a jack ass at times..hey..I'm only human..

Introduction..

Hi I'm new here..I just want to reach out and share my thoughts..to those who understands I mean really understands..I dont want to be misunderstood..whatever that I will post here in my blog..you will learn to know me..and I might even grow on you..First things first..I'm very happy..because I've been wanting to do this blog for a long time..I mean not after reading my friends blog I wont be here..so thanks to him..I hope to learn from this..to some it takes away their stress..or they want attention..same here..but what I'm really after is finding new friends..reall friends..not some jack ass..real human..with feelings..so hope to see my story..that might be good..Take care for now..till next time..